to get drunk; to fall down in the gutter (& stare at the stars); to write a story that makes yr brain explode; to sing a song that makes you dance & cry; to explore the Beerline with a buddy by my side; to drink with my hobosister; to kiss my love; to take a midnight drive; to go see The Moaners at the Empty Bottle; to be in Oakland; to be in New Orleans; to be in the Mojave; to run with coyotes; to learn how to teleport; someone to give me a new stick & poke tattoo; to ride my bike to the lake; to sleep outside; to finish up my shit for this Saturday's art show; to make my zine for the 24 Hour Zine Project; to find that lucky $5; to get on outta town; to stop being so goddamn restless & impatient & full of want all the time.

Something that really hurt(s): Torchwood. I'm currently camping by this one river in Egypt! Organising a support group for the likes of me, these lovely Egyptians are. At first I was so happy and then I was so crushed. I really did enjoy this season or arc or mini series or whatever you might call it, though, despite it ruining my mascara and giving me a hiccup. Jack's don't was my favourite line.

I don't know how to proceed.

Today I proceeded by drinking beer. I like the simple life. This summer my favourite outfit has been this simple thing:



It always strikes me how pathetically small and mouselike I am when I see myself in pictures, haha. Tatu once asked me if I'm trying to cosplay Snow White. So no, I am not trying to cosplay Snow White.

The elementary school we all went to in my village in Kauhava burnt down a while ago. Childhood gone up in flames. Saku said pages of the ABC book were flIuttering in the nightsky. The spruce we planted is still growing in the ruins, green.

There's a river in Egypt that I'd love! Torchwoodin Children of Earth -kausi nimittäin. Ei tapahtunu. Voi vittu. =( Vollotin. Mun oman rakkauselämäni koomaisuus on ihan ok mut näpit irti mun otp:eista saatana!! Mut huh ainaki oli kuumaa menoa. <3___<3 NEVER MIND THE PHILOSOPHY.

Mitäs muuta. Oon hengaillu Arashin kaa hoodseilla. En kyl tajua fandomia ku käävät valittaa et Arashin videot on nykyään tällasia:



eikä tällasia:



Rakastan toki Kitto daijoubua kaikessa karseudessaan mut vittuako niiden tarvii olla jammaamas sateenkaarella jos biisis lauletaan machi no nioi wa setsunakute eikä baby kyou wa tanoshii????!!! Oon tällanen mielipiteikäs ja valveutunu nuori. =)

Tänään oon esmes juanu kaljaa.

syn·es·the·sia syn·aes·the·sia (sĭn'ĭs-thē'zhə)

n.

A condition in which one type of stimulation evokes the sensation of another, as when the hearing of a sound produces the visualization of a color.

A sensation felt in one part of the body as a result of stimulus applied to another, as in referred pain.

The description of one kind of sense impression by using words that normally describe another.

Synesthesia from Terri Timely on Vimeo.

my internet connection sucks (which is why i haven't done my theme posts much lately), so here are a few seriously awesome mvs from a few really great older movies. i'm sure i'll add to this or post more later, but this is whats i got for now. enjoy.














(if you only watch one, watch "big spender". amazing choreography, so catchy)







hq please :)

Stumbled on this on a friend's blog. I must admit that it's her looks that made me click. The tune, then, kept me listening, with her funny familiar French accent, goofy lyrics, and the androgynous facial features coupled with the curls and irises and chin and...

But it's just that one photograph and this song.

living in 100 degree concord with my parents is really grating on me

so i escape to my wonderful san francisco as often as i can.

last night was a free concierge dinner, at an absolutely exquisite japanese restaurant (ozumo) .. i don't even consider myself a huge fan of japanese food but OH MY GOD, everything was so insanely delicious. they filled us up with beautiful small plates of so many things and lots of sake, until we were all completely satisfied and just a little bit tipsy; sure, i'll recommend your restaurant! we had this incredible triple-layer tuna/avocado/cheese thing, and very tender grilled filet mignon, and at least six or seven other dishes. the girl who worked there shared an anecdote of one woman who tried their famous miso-marinated black cod, which just melts in your mouth with the most delicate heavenly soft tangy flavor... and she said it was a transcendental experience on a plate, and she declined to eat any dessert because she wanted to leave with the taste of the cod on her lips. YEAH. trust me, it actually IS that good. however, i definitely wasn't going to deny myself the dessert: sweet strawberry mochi ice cream and tropical fruits with rich chocolate fondue.. ohhhhh please let me have oodles of money, so i will be able to afford to eat at this place someday??!? damn, my job certainly has perks!

i just hope i can keep the job for as long as possible... after 3 new concierges (tamika, dan and i) were hired, two older ones were laid off. my front-desk clerk friend told me it's because the previous concierges were paid $14/hour, and the new ones are only paid $10/hour. gotta cut costs :/ so i'm a little concerned about being more productive. i'm on morgan's good side now, i want to keep it that way.


also i want to say



ian makes me :)

i'm still falling in love.

i love you more than i love the plinth.

Koska menin ja katoin Love Shufflen loppuun Kauhavalla ilakoidessani (oli muuten superkiva, yay panda!) ni piti löytää uus dorama täyttämään tää suunnaton aukko. Löysin! Mitsuketa! Kekkon dekinai otoko (Mies joka ei pääse naimisiin)! Abe Hiroshi, Tsukamoto Takashi ja Takashima Reiko, aaah! Nää jaksojen nimetki on just parhaita:

01 So what if I like to be alone?!
02 So what if I eat the food I like to eat?!
03 So what if I spend my money the way I want to?!
04 So what if I spend my days off alone?!
05 So what if I don't let people into my home?!
06 So what if I'm inflexible?!
07 So what if I don't like to mix with the relatives?!
08 So what if I hate dogs?!
09 So what if I have a girlfriend?!
10 So what if I don't understand a woman's heart?!
11 So what if I hate floral patterns?!
12 So what if I've become happy?!

Jepjepjep, lifetän siis kovin panoksin. Nettialeshoppailuki on ollu sydäntäni lähellä. Toivottavasti ei mee kaikki palautukseen ku tää 153 sentin näyttävä varteni ja mahasta laiha ja perseestä läski vartalotyyppini aiheuttaa erinäisiä ongelmia niin vaatteen päälle mahtumisen ku päällä pysymisenki kannalta. Lisäks voin käyttää vaan remmillisiä lättäkenkiä koska mun jalkojen pituusero on melkei 4 senttiä, ja kengänkokoki on tää aina tarjolla oleva 36. :----) Yks moppipää kerran sano mulle et symmetrisyys on tylsää, mut musta olis silti ihan kivaa jos mun jalat olis edes suunnilleen saman pituset ja vähemmän vintturat. Hiirennaamani suhteen oon jo ihan ok, siirihiireys on osa identiteettiäni. =( Tänä kesänä koin kyl suuren vapautumise ku aloin käyttää shortseja vaik oon arpine ja rumajalakaane!

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Pääsen yliopistoihin ja mua ei kiinnosta; pääsen yliopistoihin ja mua ei kiinnosta; miks tää on näin tätä & miks mun kohdalla tää on näin aina? Mua kiinnostais enemmän vaikka matkustella ympäri Itä-Eurooppaa tai mennä Siperian halki junalla tai kirjoittaa tai mitä hyvänsä - ja feilaan oikeasti elämäni, mitä ihmiset tekee välivuosina? Miten mä voisin vaikka oppia puhumaan Saksaa ilman, että olisin au pair tai tekisin siellä töitä tai kävisin koulua -- miks kaikki on niin hankalaa aina, miks kaikki on mulle niin hankalaa aina, anteeks nyt vaan, mut kyllästyttää vähän et joku yksinkertaisin elämänkaari (syntyy-koulua-ammatti-kuolee) on mulle niin vaikea, suorastaan mahdoton konsepti tajuta.

Plus et mua kyllästyttää tutustua ihmisiin & sitten pettyä, tai siis: tutustua, ja sitten pettyä. Ja sit haluisin tavata jotain uusia / vanhoja / uusia ihmisiä; mitä vaan kunhan ei oo sillee tylsiä, haluisin vaan lollata ja puhua ihmisille, tai mitä vaan... voisko olla vaan hiljaa. Voisko olla vaan hiljaa.